"God is reaching out to me to rescue me. I am learning to trust Him, learning to live by His precepts that I might be preserved."
Donald Miller has become one of my favorite authors to read so far. I started "Blue Like Jazz" recently thanks to a friend who suggested it. One specific chapter, "Change" has taken over my mind. Miller talks about how he doesn't feel whole anymore and that he is just tired and exhausted of being something he isn't. Lately, these are my exact feelings. For many of us, we put on different masks everyplace we go, and it gets exhausting. I for one, am at a certain place in life where I am really starting to find myself and realize who it is I want to become. However, this seems to get harder and more complicated. I suppose what I am really searching for is a relationship, specifically a relationship with God. This past week has been a difficult one to say the least. It has made me put all my trust in God and believe that whatever comes out of these decisions, will work out for the best. Leaving me to realize that one of my greatest challenges was trusting God, trusting God with everything. So for the time being, all my trust is being put into Him. It absolutely terrifies me, though at the same time it's comforting. This trip to Honduras is going to be a mega stepping stone in working toward that complete trust with God. It has been amazing to see the commitment from the other team members on our endeavor and watching how God is working by helping get the funds we need and the amount of people that have been praying for us and with us to succeed. Thank you to everyone that has become a partner with myself and others, we are still a long way form where we need to be, however, our trust is in Him.